Loco - Pain

((First of all, I'd like to say it's a song I wrote regarding my personal life, it wasn't meant to be for the server. It's still W.I.P))
((As I do trust you niggas, I hope nobody will actually stole my lyrics since I'll be recording this song soon in real life.))



Bustin' up this beat, it's a straight homicide.
I'll show you struggle, look straight in my eyes.
Nothing's gona change even if I cry.
I don't know what to do, that's why I keep a smile.
Didn't had other choice than graduate from Corner High.
My time's running out but I don't wanna die.
Didn't had an easy childhood, I ain't gona lie.
Sometimes I sit 'n think, just staring at the sky.
Gettin' on my knees and askin' the lord why?
Please give me a sign or any type of reply.
I done wrongs things 'n I haven't slept good since.
To be honest, it's fucking up my conscience.
I made angels cries, I'm convienced.
Will the lord forgives me, that's a suspense.
I made mistakes due to my negligence.
That's how I grew up, raised by the violence.

I'm losing my sane, boy, I'm tryn'a get it back.
It's all the pain in my soul that I'm bustin' on this track.
Cursed with paranoia, did it worths the money stack?
Seen so many things my heart's colder than a ice pack.
The day I'll die, look in the sky, it'll rain.
All theses tears fallin' out representin' my pain.
Seems like life smacked me with all that it can.
I'm a motherfuckin' soldier, knowin' I never ran.
Only father I had used to beat on my momma.
Sometimes I just see black, I'd pull the fucking trigga'.
Now that this fucker is in prison, I'ma tryn'a forget my past.
How comes I ain't in jail too? I guess my time won't last.